5/15/17 End of the 19th week! Officially half way there. Minus a few panic attacks here and there worrying over movement (or lack of), I …
Another Mother’s Day With One Missing & One on the Way (PAL Journal: 19 Weeks)
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Trauma of Loss: Panic Attack at the OB
Today I had to come in to an OB appointment I scheduled to look into some issues I’ve have with my period (truthfully since my …
God Sent Us An Angel: The Story of Owen Nathaniel’s Birth & Loss
Have you ever wondered “why me”? When tragedy strikes it’s ruthless, cold and fast. It cuts you like a sharp blade then leaves you alone …
Getting Closer, But Not Any Easier (PAL Journal: 15 Weeks)
4/12/17 It’s strange being pregnant after loss in your second trimester of pregnancy. You no longer have that feeling of relief you did before when …
Oh How I Wish
I wish I knew you were in danger. I wish I had screamed at the ER for help instead of cried. I wish I was …
Getting To The Gestational Age That We Lost Our Son Owen (PAL Diary Entry: 32 weeks)
8/8/17 As we get closer to passing 32 weeks and hopefully meeting our son Jax I think my grief for Owen has gotten stronger, mainly …
Grief (Uncensored)
Here she is again; That viscous, heartless bitch, grief. She has no care for what day it is. She storms in, flinging the door wide …
Indifference or Apathy Towards Loss; It’s Time to Talk
Lately my expression of grief has been lingering in the anger phase more than usual. Probably because all my emotions of frustration and anger regarding …
Missing You Still
Sometimes others have better ways of communicating how we feel. The documentary “Jacob” by Shawn Lovering did just that for me today. Watching the imagery …
Acceptance & Forgiveness
Almost a year baby boy. Can’t believe how much we have endured in such a short amount of time. I feel like I’ve aged so …
