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Oh How I Wish

I wish I knew you were in danger.

I wish I had screamed at the ER for help instead of cried.

I wish I was warned about the signs.

I wish we could have saved you.

I wish I could’ve held you alive.

I wish you were still in my arms today.

Missing you, my forever baby Owen.

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  • L@s esperamos en Clubhouse si necesitan apoyo. ❤️‍🩹
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#bebeestrella #mamaenduelo #mamadeunangel #maternidadereal #perdidagestacional
  • Telling Jackson‘s birth story last night on @pushpregnancy’s FB to raise awareness about #incompetentcervix has me feeling all the feels. 

It’s surreal to look back on that difficult period knowing now he’s safely here. 

In the moment we were in survival mode. We were petrified every passing week that we could lose another son. 

I prayed every second of his pregnancy. I cried tears of joy, grief & fear. I held my breath while trying to manifest him into reality. I was humbled because I couldn’t care for myself or my family being on strict bed rest for the final 17 weeks. (Each week after 32 wks when Owen died felt like a ticking time bomb.) I allowed our family & community to help us survive. I created vision boards on Pinterest’s with motivational quotes & images of mommy-son picnics like this one dreaming of a little boy I hoped to get to raise. I knew nothing was in our control but I still counted every kick & slept hardly at all afraid I’d miss a change again. I fought like a mother when I felt something was different. Despite my lack of knowing what took his brother, I never gave up hope.

I don’t know why some babies get to stay & others don’t. I hate #incompetentcervix & all the lives it has cut short just as much as I wish #stillbirth wasn’t a part of our family’s story & we could have two wild blonde brothers giving their sister smooches. 

All our babies should be here. 

We’ll never be a complete family, but I thank God every day for the two children I have in my arms & the one in my heart. 💙
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#familyisforever #momof3 #rainbowbaby #pregnancyafterloss
  • Last night I shared part of my motherhood journey focusing on my #pregnancyafterloss with #incompetentcervix that thankfully ended happily with Owen & Naomi’s little brother, Jackson, here alive & well. 

It was an incredibly difficult experience, which I know many can relate to & I hope that if you were diagnosed with IC you realize you are not alone. 

If you missed this informative Live on @pushpregnancy’s FB with @icawarecampaign’s Jessica Valle & Dr. Amy Turitz from Columbia University, you can still watch it now (link in stories). 

Please remember to support families today for #ICADay by posting a pic wearing teal & share your experiences too. 

Hopefully by raising more awareness we can PUSH for earlier cervical length screening to help more babies get to full-term & be able to live happy lives with their families. 

Follow @icawarecampaign to join this important movement! 💙
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#incompetentcervixawareness #IStandWithICFamilies #cervicalinsufficiency #earlycervicalopening
  • Sigue nuestra cuenta nueva @creadorasdeluz para información REAL para tu embarazo (en español). 💫

Creado con todo el amor de nuestra tribu que quiere nada más que tu tengas un embarazo feliz y llegues a dar a luz ✨

Tod@s somos mamás y papas, aunque algunos bebés no se pueden quedar. Aquí estamos para apoyarte también. 💜 

Repost- Creadoras de Luz 💫

Somos un grupo de mamás que al perder a nuestros bebes, hemos decidido hacer todo lo posible para que ninguna madre pase por esto. 

Nuestra misión es informar de los riesgos en el embarazo y con esta información prevenir al máximo las muertes en etapa perinatal. 

Con nuestra experiencia y además al tener entre nosotras doctoras, psicólogas y madres que no cesan en investigar más, pretendemos que este espacio te dé las herramientas para que tu bebé llegue sano.

En honor a nuestras estrellas ⭐️

#embarazada #dueloperinatal #dueloperinatalyneonatal #informacionembarazo #prevencion #prevencionmuertefetal #perdidaperinatal #perdidadebebe #perdidagestacional #tipsembarazo #tipembarazosaludable #bebearcoris🌈 #bebeestrella⭐ #bebeestrella #mamaenduelo
  • You see 2. I see 3. ✨

#nofilter #momof3 #familyisforever #alwayswithus #signsfromheaven
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